Oh Max!

Man oh man! 

         It was quite the weekend, I have never felt more drained in my life. It's so hard to really balance my life on weekends, I'm always doing something when I really just wouldn't mind staying home. I guess I'm just doomed. Anyways, Max and I finally made it "official" as pathetic as it sounds.

         Speaking of emotions, I concluded today that I'm actually DOOMED. I spent an hour of my evening tonight sobbing watching wedding videos. I really don't know what it is about them but, they get me EVERY time. I think it's really because I'm not really getting any younger per say and I never know what is really going to happen. If you think about it, at this point the next "new" relationship you get in could be the last "new" relationship you get in. I'm such an emotional basket case, it's really not normal. 

        Have you ever really just "met" someone and knew it wouldn't be like anyone else you've ever met? I think that it's something that has thrown me off. I'm so accustomed to rush into everything but, this just isn't the same. I haven't ever had this much fun with someone in such a short amount of time.  Max really is just a great guy, he's not like anyone else I've dated. I have gone on so many dates within the past year but, they all had something in common, failure. When you get in such a habit of things you just go with the same type. 

       Everything about my new relationship is new to me. I always seem to rush things but, not this time. We met in Kickball back in May before he rolled off a contract in Houston. We never really rushed into anything, well I haven't had anything ever move this slow. So, I'll tell you about Max! He's one of the best guys I've EVER met. Something about him is just something I haven't found in anyone, he wants to travel just as much as me and wants the same things out of life. He is AMAZING with my family and, most importantly my nephews. Have you ever met someone that's made you want to become a better person? He is that person for me. I was so selfish before I met him, now things are different. I know that this is different  because, I'm okay with the fact that he doesn't live in Houston. WE make a point to see each other every other weekend to every week. We're not in constant conversation but, it's really the little things. Things would be like, he calls me every day after work and makes plans for the future. When i went to the wedding with him last night, everyone made a point to tell me how happy he is with me. The difference between Max and I is that, I've tended to be in more relationships so I suppose me being in a new relationship isn't that substantial in the scheme of things but, since he doesn't really tend to date it makes me realize how much I really mean to him. It really is pathetic at this point, I dropped him off at the airport at 3 and I already miss him. We don't really know who's going to move in the long run. 

       Sorry for rambling but, I don't really know if I've ever felt this way about anyone. It's not something that I see lasting just in the short term but, the long term. I really cannot wait to see what my future with holds.